I am writing a cookbook and there is a whole chapter on ramen noodles.
I just wrote two side sections titled Ramen: it Fails at Life and Over Thirty and Still Eating Ramen? You Fail at Life.
In reality I am promoting eating ramen, but throwing away the flavour packet and using my recipes. There are some ramen stir-frys, breakfast ramen, and many recipes that disturb even me. I just started this book and it is going to take so much effort. That's why we have dreams!
Friday, December 25, 2009
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
The Joys of Life Out of High School
My friend definitely peed in a milk jug today.
He had to pee, so we all went into the bathroom & said we would watch. So he went to the kitchen sink and we followed. Finally when everyone had to pee just from waiting he grabbed an empty milk jug and locked himself in a closet. A few minutes later he came into the bathroom, announced what he had done, and poured the pee (and a little milk) into the toilet, a few drops getting on one of my other friends.
Then we shoved 7 people into the shower. Such are the joys of having a party in a 1 bathroom apartment with people just out of high school.
He had to pee, so we all went into the bathroom & said we would watch. So he went to the kitchen sink and we followed. Finally when everyone had to pee just from waiting he grabbed an empty milk jug and locked himself in a closet. A few minutes later he came into the bathroom, announced what he had done, and poured the pee (and a little milk) into the toilet, a few drops getting on one of my other friends.
Then we shoved 7 people into the shower. Such are the joys of having a party in a 1 bathroom apartment with people just out of high school.
Thursday, December 17, 2009
BFFs, Old and New
I am not a normal or easy-to-stand person. People do not like me. I talk a lot, I have acne, I correct people's grammar aloud, I dress weird so it is a little embarrassing to stand next to me. So you can imagine that it is a little hard to find people with whom I click.
The solution? Find weird people.
So calling all weirdos, rainbow scene kids, annoying people, and even those creepy people who go to Denny's at two am and make straw walruses. Because I love you guys, even if you are just as weird as I am.
(yes, all pictures are my real friends)
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
Building Self-Esteem for the Chronic Emo
These days every group has one (or many) of those emo people who constantly says downing things about themselves. A lot of groups just accept it. But to us, that is a drag.
So what do you do?
Well, the emo will stay friends with you through abuse, so violence, while still bad, is effective.
In my group we instituted a new policy - if someone downs themself, they get hit. Since my friends are scene they carry hair brushes, the perfect weapon against the forces of emo.
As bad as I feel when Steven gets hit (he is so oft emo), I really feel like it makes us realize that we should be happy. Anyone with friends great enough to beat happiness into them has something to smile about.
Epiphany From Dan
http://www.myspace.com/epiphanyfromdan
On their page you see my name as the person who came up with the band's name. They may be a random MySpace band, but they are my favorite random MySpace band and made up of the coolest, nicest (maybe except Fabio) people ever. And they just happen to rock.
They performed in a lobby and made a buck fifty, the best way to make a buck fifty (yeah, I blogged that too)...
Even better - I am a writer for their band.
By no means am I a musician. I can play a piano if the notes are written on the keys (my keyboard is.) However, I perfectly understand music theory and can hear my song in my head (schizophrenic jokes aside. This combined with coming from a family of writers (who write poetry... Ugh...) gave me the ability to rock out on paper.
My first song for them is in the process of editing. And then I let Epiphany From Dan shed their moment of knowledge on it. it is a traditional breakup song. Only the breakup is not theirs. It is a story (dialogue) of one side of a two a.m. phone conversation with a heartbroken besty. Even better, the band has only done covers so far - mine is their first original.
They don't know yet, but I will milk all I can get out of this amazing band just for my own bragging rights. As a Theatre/English Ed. major/dancer (choreographer?)/amateur video-maker, I am planning on forcing them into a music video. Luckily for me, they love me. They are only sophomores in high school with one of their mothers (A fellow English Major!) as their manager. A real garage band (really, they have a garage) they are some of my favorite people and even if I hated them, I could not deny their talent. Give them a listen on their MySpace (granted some of their recording equipment needs replacing).
(Guitarist, Rita)
(Bassist, Dan)
(Vocalist, Fabio and the back of Rita's head)
(Drummer Shea (BatShea) Photo by someone who isn't me)
On their page you see my name as the person who came up with the band's name. They may be a random MySpace band, but they are my favorite random MySpace band and made up of the coolest, nicest (maybe except Fabio) people ever. And they just happen to rock.
They performed in a lobby and made a buck fifty, the best way to make a buck fifty (yeah, I blogged that too)...
Even better - I am a writer for their band.
By no means am I a musician. I can play a piano if the notes are written on the keys (my keyboard is.) However, I perfectly understand music theory and can hear my song in my head (schizophrenic jokes aside. This combined with coming from a family of writers (who write poetry... Ugh...) gave me the ability to rock out on paper.
My first song for them is in the process of editing. And then I let Epiphany From Dan shed their moment of knowledge on it. it is a traditional breakup song. Only the breakup is not theirs. It is a story (dialogue) of one side of a two a.m. phone conversation with a heartbroken besty. Even better, the band has only done covers so far - mine is their first original.
They don't know yet, but I will milk all I can get out of this amazing band just for my own bragging rights. As a Theatre/English Ed. major/dancer (choreographer?)/amateur video-maker, I am planning on forcing them into a music video. Luckily for me, they love me. They are only sophomores in high school with one of their mothers (A fellow English Major!) as their manager. A real garage band (really, they have a garage) they are some of my favorite people and even if I hated them, I could not deny their talent. Give them a listen on their MySpace (granted some of their recording equipment needs replacing).
(Guitarist, Rita)
(Bassist, Dan)
(Vocalist, Fabio and the back of Rita's head)
(Drummer Shea (BatShea) Photo by someone who isn't me)
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
How To Make A Buck Fifty
The easiest way to make a buck fifty today is to get a job. Or to ask people for change on the street.
The best (and most fun) way to make money?
Be a street performer!
That's right! Put on silly costumes and dance!
Well, maybe not the silly costumes... And you can even forgo the dancing if you wish...
Well, the band for whom I write, Epiphany From Dan ( http://www.myspace.com/epiphanyfromdan )didn't have to sit outside to make a buck fifty last night. Because the high school was having a basketball game and there were people in the foyer, ripe for some musical entertainment.
Just the guitarist, Rita, and the vocalist, Fabio were there to play. They had a guitar case, a paper-and-sharpie sign, and the music in their hearts. They made a buck fifty all night. And they were happy.
(Fabio and Rita rocking it out for sports fans in a high school's foyer.)
Friday, December 4, 2009
Need Cash For College
Getting into college:
The struggle facing many students these days is no longer getting the best scores and getting into college, that part my generation has. The struggle now is money.
I am an identical twin with a stepbrother who will be graduating with us. We are humble land surveyors with our own business. I have a 29 ACT score, the highest of the three. My sister has a learning disability and my brother relies on baseball to pay.
Tomorrow I compete for a scholarship against 50 high-ranking students.
Paying for college is the struggle of my generation. We must enter the workforce instead. In a world where you need a degree to flip burgers, keeping us from college puts forth a grim future for the future of our nation and our youth.
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
AIDS is bad.
Yesterday was AIDS awareness day. Since I am a day behind I will blog about it now.
Facts about AIDS:
•Two million people died from AIDS in 2007 (5,500 people per day), and 72 percent of these deaths were in sub-Saharan Africa.
•Over 33 million people are living with HIV/AIDS, and 67 percent of these infected people live in sub-Saharan Africa.
•Fifty percent of adults living with HIV/AIDS are women.
•There are 7,400 new infections every day (95 percent in developing countries).
• HIV/AIDS is a "disease of young people" with 45 percent of the new infections each year occurring among people ages 15 to 24.
•Annually, there are 70,000 new infections of children under age 15. Many of these children are or will become orphans. Without treatment, approximately half of the children with perinatal infection will die by the age of 2.
•The estimated number of orphans under 18 years of age in sub-Saharan Africa is 11 to 12 million.
(from http://www.until.org/statistics.shtml?gclid=CJzwqJGJuJ4CFR5inAodyghrrA )
In the US alone there are 1.1 people living with HIV/AIDS. There are many new infections every year.
And in Africa children are orphaned and a lot are born with HIV or infected before age 15. We need to find a cure. Everyone responded to Swine Flu, AIDS is being overlooked, overshadowed by lesser diseases or diseases that affect Americans. We can't ignore the dying children just because they aren't right here.
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
Shy People Suck
I hate when shy people are upset or hurt by something. Because they don't/won't say that something is wrong, even if they hate you.
Like my friend Steven. He never speaks up for himself & is usually quiet and agreeable.
But I constantly feel like he hates me or thinks some of the things I believe are stupid.
If he read that, he would insist that it was not true even if it were. It is awesome that he cares and is a people-pleaser, but when he won't speak his mind, it makes me worry.
I should not be so tantalized by one friend, but I am. I need people to tell me when they are bothered (whine if you must). You needn't tell everyone else if you are shy, but please stop mentally tormenting me.
Not just Steven. The world. Other friends.
Secrets cause cancer.
Swine Flu Vaccination and Why it is Bad
The vaccine many people are so ready to inject into their fragile bodies is made with the dead virus. This vaccine, which is being used on infants, contains ingredients such as mercury and is perfectly comparable to the 1976 vaccine that caused paralysis and a slew of other serious problems.
Worse, we are giving it to billions of people untested!
This vaccine could cause swine flu instead of stop it, it could cause permanent paralysis and it could kill people!
The Baxter Drug company is still distributing this vaccine, dispite the risks. And they are making a ton of money. They recieved a short-term patent on the vaccine. a look at this patent should tell any sane person to avoid this vaccine like the plague:
“Suitable adjuvants can be selected from mineral gels,
aluminum hydroxide, surface active substances, lysolecithin,
pluronic polyols, polyanions or oil emulsions such as water in
oil or oil in water, or a combination thereof. Of course the
selection of the adjuvant depends on the intended use.
E.g. toxicity may depend on the destined subject organism
and can vary from no toxicity to high toxicity.”
It allows for a dangerously high toxicity. The adjuvant called MF-59 Contains SQUALENE, a chemical known to cause Lupus, Multiple Sclerosis
Rheumatoid Arthritis, and immune issues. MF-59 killed 13 out of 14 animals on which it was tested. It is not approved by the FDA for use. And yet this vaccine, containing this banned ingredient, is approved for use on our children! The future generation of our planet is being subjected to destructive chemicals and drugs that can and will cause them to be disabled.
With our economy going down the drain we cannot afford to lose the workers of tomorrow to a deadly and untested vaccine similar to the anthrax vaccine used on Vietman soldiers (who are now suffering because of the vaccine).
Think this over, what is in the vaccine?
1. Virus
2. MF-59, a drug that weakens the immune system and caused disease.
3. Mercury, a chemical that forms precipitates in the brain and destroys brain tissue, leading to all sorts of mental and sensory problems and often death in younger individuals
4. Aluminum - shown to cause Alzheimer's and toxicity
This virus will do what the anthrax virus did to our veterans - it will cause ALS, Lupus, Transverse Myelitis, Blindness and other problems. It will turn a healthy person into a sick one. It will destroy our children and our elderly and it will not protect us from swine flu or any other virus that comes along.
Worse, we are giving it to billions of people untested!
This vaccine could cause swine flu instead of stop it, it could cause permanent paralysis and it could kill people!
The Baxter Drug company is still distributing this vaccine, dispite the risks. And they are making a ton of money. They recieved a short-term patent on the vaccine. a look at this patent should tell any sane person to avoid this vaccine like the plague:
“Suitable adjuvants can be selected from mineral gels,
aluminum hydroxide, surface active substances, lysolecithin,
pluronic polyols, polyanions or oil emulsions such as water in
oil or oil in water, or a combination thereof. Of course the
selection of the adjuvant depends on the intended use.
E.g. toxicity may depend on the destined subject organism
and can vary from no toxicity to high toxicity.”
It allows for a dangerously high toxicity. The adjuvant called MF-59 Contains SQUALENE, a chemical known to cause Lupus, Multiple Sclerosis
Rheumatoid Arthritis, and immune issues. MF-59 killed 13 out of 14 animals on which it was tested. It is not approved by the FDA for use. And yet this vaccine, containing this banned ingredient, is approved for use on our children! The future generation of our planet is being subjected to destructive chemicals and drugs that can and will cause them to be disabled.
With our economy going down the drain we cannot afford to lose the workers of tomorrow to a deadly and untested vaccine similar to the anthrax vaccine used on Vietman soldiers (who are now suffering because of the vaccine).
Think this over, what is in the vaccine?
1. Virus
2. MF-59, a drug that weakens the immune system and caused disease.
3. Mercury, a chemical that forms precipitates in the brain and destroys brain tissue, leading to all sorts of mental and sensory problems and often death in younger individuals
4. Aluminum - shown to cause Alzheimer's and toxicity
This virus will do what the anthrax virus did to our veterans - it will cause ALS, Lupus, Transverse Myelitis, Blindness and other problems. It will turn a healthy person into a sick one. It will destroy our children and our elderly and it will not protect us from swine flu or any other virus that comes along.
Violence is bad
Care to guess why?
Before you give me WWJD or 'because God said so' or 'because Jesus never punched anyone in the face,' let's think with logic:
Before you give me WWJD or 'because God said so' or 'because Jesus never punched anyone in the face,' let's think with logic:
1. It causes bodily harm. Bodily harm is bad.
2. It is not refined. Unless you are a master fencer, what you are doing is ugly. There is no honor in hitting or shooting or bombing.
3. Police involvement generally hinders you later in life.
4. Karma, Man! You reap what you sow. And you sowed getting your butt kicked.
5. An act of violence takes more energy than any of its productive counterparts. And let's face it, you need all that energy for other things, like procreation, or making new blood if you bleed out (which brings me back to bodily harm)
5 good reasons.Do with them what you will/won't
Saturday, November 21, 2009
Bonfire Fun
The band bonfire was awesome...
I learned to dance from Daniel Fernandez...
That's really it.
I love how he can dance and have fun with no worries as to what other people think of his bizzare dancing.
One day, my friend, you will be a street performer.
I learned to dance from Daniel Fernandez...
That's really it.
I love how he can dance and have fun with no worries as to what other people think of his bizzare dancing.
One day, my friend, you will be a street performer.
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
My mother just told me that I brag too much.
If only she knew how I really felt! If she knew how much I hate myself most of the time she would be glad I could smile and say positive things - even if I know those things are false.
If only she knew how I really felt! If she knew how much I hate myself most of the time she would be glad I could smile and say positive things - even if I know those things are false.
The modern parent either needs to be more aware of their kids' feelings/life... Or less condescending.
It is too late for my parents, but hopefully this next generation parents do not turn out like my mother.
Monday, November 16, 2009
Dear Steven (my poor shy friend),
Even if you weren't adorable, we would want to be seen with you. Even if you couldn't carry a tune in a bucket, we would still want to hear your voice. Even if we didn't need you, we would still want you. Even if you never got hyper, and stayed sleepy all day, we would still want to hang out with you.
Even if you weren't adorable, we would want to be seen with you. Even if you couldn't carry a tune in a bucket, we would still want to hear your voice. Even if we didn't need you, we would still want you. Even if you never got hyper, and stayed sleepy all day, we would still want to hang out with you.
And though you blush and protest, the fact remains that you are amazing. You always look perfect, even when you think you don't. I stop breathing when you sing - your voice is that good. You are not just an energy source, you are a friend. A truer one than any I have ever had. And I wish you could see it. Smile. And ask for what you want, even if it is to be away from me. Because you are amazing, even if you can't see it.
I am going to tell my children/grandchildren about this. I can imagine the story now:
Well, i had eaten a lot of food & since i was a dancer i needed to stay thin. So I took some pills to get it all out of me. Long story short: I had explosive diarrhea for 2 days straight.
I hope they never become this obsessed with their looks.
Also it is just a fun story...
Bad Ideas...
Never take laxitives to lose weight.
I took them last night & expected them 2 work as fast as usual, but no, it worked as i was working in my college's library & throughout the day. My tummy hurt & i kept having 2 poo & ppl smelled all the fartness.
Plus i had explosive diarrhea in a public restroom. I was like those ppl who u hear/smell when u go in & you wonder what they ate.
I ate laxitives. Sorry for the smell.
Sunday, November 15, 2009
Scene is Sexy (when you do it so well)
My boyfriend is undoubtably the manliest guy I know. 100 lbs, 5'3 and donning hot pink skinny jeans and scene hair, he is an actor - the director said he wasn't macho enough for the lead this time. Everywhere he goes people call him gay, a fag, queer, and other gay slurs. He smiles, says thanks, and prances off. No matter how gay or weird he seems he keeps doing what he wants and driving his powder blue Prius, blaring Jeffree Star's Beauty Killer.
And maybe his flamboyant self-expression has taught me to let loose a little. After all, it takes a real man to pull of pink&blue zebra striped skinny jeans, particularly if he is holding hands with a girl in a matching pair.
And maybe his flamboyant self-expression has taught me to let loose a little. After all, it takes a real man to pull of pink&blue zebra striped skinny jeans, particularly if he is holding hands with a girl in a matching pair.
Thursday, November 12, 2009
New words in the English language
A friend and i realized that the use of the word I'm and Amn't are both good for expressing 'I am not.' This lead to the creation of a new word: I'mn't, in the style of Edwardian word-shortening.
I'mn't sure if Shakespeare would have used the word, but hey, it's here, it's a little queer, but it's going to catch on, so get used to it!
Also there has been a long debate over the word Grey (or Gray). We have settled this debate with a simple excercise in logic:
Grey
Gray
Cancel out the Y's, and what you get is: Grae. pronounced the same way that Gray or Grey would have been pronounced, but ten times as amazing. use it next time you need to express that pesky colour between black and white!
I'mn't sure if Shakespeare would have used the word, but hey, it's here, it's a little queer, but it's going to catch on, so get used to it!
Also there has been a long debate over the word Grey (or Gray). We have settled this debate with a simple excercise in logic:
Grey
Gray
Cancel out the Y's, and what you get is: Grae. pronounced the same way that Gray or Grey would have been pronounced, but ten times as amazing. use it next time you need to express that pesky colour between black and white!
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
Saturday, November 7, 2009
Today was my last performance of the 2009 marching band show - my last show of highschool and my final performance of my solo.
I don't know how to feel. Just...the thing that took my soul for four years suddenly gave it back and now it feels weird to have a soul, free time, and 130 less friends.
I just hope i can remember the times, good and bad. To the band class of 2010, rock on!
Friday, October 30, 2009
Talk with a teen just off of the adhd medication Vivance:
'Everything used to be to achieve a purpose. I was hyperfocused on everything. Even when I masterbated, I sat there like 'I have to keep going until I cum' now I can relax'
More thoughts on why kids + add medications do not mix.
This sophomore was very vulgar, apologies.
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
Freshman sax #1 (she moved from 4 to 1 because she is pretty good and because of this) was talking to me, I pulled up my sleeve to find the welp I suspected to be there from a sabre/arm collision earlier.
She gasped, 'Wow' she said in her cute spanish accent, 'your skin is so pale!'
That made my day.
In unrelated news- I broke 3 nails with rifle & sabre tosses yesterday.
She gasped, 'Wow' she said in her cute spanish accent, 'your skin is so pale!'
That made my day.
In unrelated news- I broke 3 nails with rifle & sabre tosses yesterday.
Monday, October 26, 2009
Paranormal Activity
I went to see the film Paranormal Activity recently.
The plot is that this girl has been haunted since she was 8. Her bf (with whom she has recently begun living) buys a camera & records them sleeping & stuff. They start to put together that it is a demon and the stuff gets weirder and more intense.
I had to sleep with the light on after watching this movie!
The film has believable characters and isn't completely a contrived gorefest like a lot of horror movies (Saw 1-999). While it doesn't have the sympathetic villian from The Ring (a murdered little girl who kills ppl), it has the neat-o 'found footage' aspect of The Blair Witch Project (which was filmed in my hometown) with better film quality and effects.
I give this movie a 5 out of 5.
The plot is that this girl has been haunted since she was 8. Her bf (with whom she has recently begun living) buys a camera & records them sleeping & stuff. They start to put together that it is a demon and the stuff gets weirder and more intense.
I had to sleep with the light on after watching this movie!
The film has believable characters and isn't completely a contrived gorefest like a lot of horror movies (Saw 1-999). While it doesn't have the sympathetic villian from The Ring (a murdered little girl who kills ppl), it has the neat-o 'found footage' aspect of The Blair Witch Project (which was filmed in my hometown) with better film quality and effects.
I give this movie a 5 out of 5.
Friday, October 23, 2009
Today has been a craptastic piece of crap on a stick. If today were a lingering bad smell, even i would smell it.
I had senior night for marching band. People made the seniors posters. I didn't have a poster. I didn't have any friends.
as we began changing into uniforms, my bag was missing. I cried, looked, screamed. Some super-douche knocked it down, it was in between the racks, all scrunched.
the whole stupid feetball game I kept almost crying. Not because graduation and no more band, but because I kept getting super deppressed.
when I got home I ate a ton of hummus. Yes, hummus. That is my comfort food.
I have to get up early and practice tomorrow and I still need to shower today.
That was just today. I had a whole week of poo.
I had senior night for marching band. People made the seniors posters. I didn't have a poster. I didn't have any friends.
as we began changing into uniforms, my bag was missing. I cried, looked, screamed. Some super-douche knocked it down, it was in between the racks, all scrunched.
the whole stupid feetball game I kept almost crying. Not because graduation and no more band, but because I kept getting super deppressed.
when I got home I ate a ton of hummus. Yes, hummus. That is my comfort food.
I have to get up early and practice tomorrow and I still need to shower today.
That was just today. I had a whole week of poo.
Thursday, October 22, 2009
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
The students of my High School are organizing something really...interesting - Friday morning after the first bell rings, there will be a group hug in the main hallway by the bookstore. There is a big FWD message about it being circulated. Teachers are welcome to join.
I do not know if this is a social protest against war or something the school is doing (the school has a strict no-PDA policy), or just people trying to share the love. Either way, at least part of the 2000 member student body will be embracing their peers at 7:50 am Friday morning until they have to go to class or until the hug is broken up by teachers and staff.
I do not know if this is a social protest against war or something the school is doing (the school has a strict no-PDA policy), or just people trying to share the love. Either way, at least part of the 2000 member student body will be embracing their peers at 7:50 am Friday morning until they have to go to class or until the hug is broken up by teachers and staff.
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
I just cut about 4 inches off of my hair. It was so long - butt level - that it was unmanageable.
I showered and conditioned, then took the little scissors in my sewing kit, brushed it out. Snip, snip, snip. It is a little longer in back, but it is so curly that no one will notice.
I love how cheap it is to cut my own hair. Luckily I have never had a bad experience... Yet. One day I will end up with a self-inflicted mullet. Until then, it's the Jew way, or no way...
I showered and conditioned, then took the little scissors in my sewing kit, brushed it out. Snip, snip, snip. It is a little longer in back, but it is so curly that no one will notice.
I love how cheap it is to cut my own hair. Luckily I have never had a bad experience... Yet. One day I will end up with a self-inflicted mullet. Until then, it's the Jew way, or no way...
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
I am 7 days into being a person who uses porcelana (2% hydroquinone) for overall skin whitening.
I have noticed a slight difference so far, hopefully i will continue to get lighter.
As for side-effects: i avoid sunlight so i don't know about burning, but my skin is behaving the way fair skin does.
I was out in the cold for two hours for band practice (donning spf and a hat), and when i came inside, my cheeks had turned pink from the cold. It didn't hurt like sunburn, but that has never happened - i'm slavic/middle eastern, it shouldn't.
also- my face and neck are pale and my arms tan, i wear long sleeves and bleach my arms as well, but i can't seem to get them light...
Overall i would say this is a good thing, hopefully it stays that way!
I have noticed a slight difference so far, hopefully i will continue to get lighter.
As for side-effects: i avoid sunlight so i don't know about burning, but my skin is behaving the way fair skin does.
I was out in the cold for two hours for band practice (donning spf and a hat), and when i came inside, my cheeks had turned pink from the cold. It didn't hurt like sunburn, but that has never happened - i'm slavic/middle eastern, it shouldn't.
also- my face and neck are pale and my arms tan, i wear long sleeves and bleach my arms as well, but i can't seem to get them light...
Overall i would say this is a good thing, hopefully it stays that way!
Monday, October 12, 2009
Thank you, life. I had a nice break, i saw my boyfriend for the 1st time in a week, the day was looking great...
Then you punched me in the face.
bam, mood swing around 1:30. I was too depressed for swing dancing.
then marching band - i just couldn't do anything right and it was either too hot or too cold outside. Anger came from that, the frustration built, i wanted to cry... Back to the deppression. Winters are the worst. Everything starts to suck... I can wear my favorite outfit, kiss my wonderful boyfriend, and still feel the winter sneaking into me, stopping me from being happy.
Winters are the worst.
Then you punched me in the face.
bam, mood swing around 1:30. I was too depressed for swing dancing.
then marching band - i just couldn't do anything right and it was either too hot or too cold outside. Anger came from that, the frustration built, i wanted to cry... Back to the deppression. Winters are the worst. Everything starts to suck... I can wear my favorite outfit, kiss my wonderful boyfriend, and still feel the winter sneaking into me, stopping me from being happy.
Winters are the worst.
Friday, October 9, 2009
Today In History:
singer/songwriter John Lennon (The Beetles) was born in 1940, today is his 69th birthday.
Famous for his politics, his music, and that trademark Beetles hair, Lennon was there to urge those 60's youth into activism and love.
The US government suspected him of being a communist for a long while. And with songs like 'I am the Walrus,' who didn't?
whatever Lennon's politics, his short life left a mark on the history of culture and music that not even Oxi-Clean can get out.
singer/songwriter John Lennon (The Beetles) was born in 1940, today is his 69th birthday.
Famous for his politics, his music, and that trademark Beetles hair, Lennon was there to urge those 60's youth into activism and love.
The US government suspected him of being a communist for a long while. And with songs like 'I am the Walrus,' who didn't?
whatever Lennon's politics, his short life left a mark on the history of culture and music that not even Oxi-Clean can get out.
For Act Like A Time Traveller Day i was thinking of being me from the near future, & caught in some explosion that sent me back in time. As the day progressed i would realize what happened, what day it was, and i would start searching for why and how. I think i should only go back maybe a month. And i need to find my past self inexplicably absent... Maybe i became my past self when we collided... (alternatively my twin sis could be me 4 the day & i could avoid her)
Costume would be basic - i was blasted back home, so i might have some bruises, but i could change clothes.
If i can't work that one out very well maybe i'll just do the utopian future thing... Time tourist in upper class steampunk garb...
They could both be cool if done right...
Costume would be basic - i was blasted back home, so i might have some bruises, but i could change clothes.
If i can't work that one out very well maybe i'll just do the utopian future thing... Time tourist in upper class steampunk garb...
They could both be cool if done right...
Standardized Testing
They coral students into icy rooms where the buzz of an air conditioner overpowers everything. The guy next to you always smells bad, taps things, and/or smacks his gum. You scribble & scratch, dreading the consequential onset of carpal tunnel syndrome.
They begin with something easy - reading. It lulls you into a false sense of security.
Then BAM! The math section. You have twenty seconds a question, you learned this stuff in freshman Algebra, you have no idea what to do, you sit your freshly-sharpened pencil on the table and pray. The timer goes off & you wasted your time praying.
Standardized testing. What can you do? The test is sent off & they compare you to other students as if everyone is the same. If i wasn't in the top 10%, i would hate it...
They begin with something easy - reading. It lulls you into a false sense of security.
Then BAM! The math section. You have twenty seconds a question, you learned this stuff in freshman Algebra, you have no idea what to do, you sit your freshly-sharpened pencil on the table and pray. The timer goes off & you wasted your time praying.
Standardized testing. What can you do? The test is sent off & they compare you to other students as if everyone is the same. If i wasn't in the top 10%, i would hate it...
Thursday, October 8, 2009
The decision to actually put chemical skin lighteners on your skin is not something to take lightly. In some cases it can do crazy things to a person's skin, and there is no way to know how your skin is going to react.
Pale skin is beautiful, i will admit that, but the yearning for it should not be so important that people put their health at risk. You have to choose a safe skin lightener. I hope i chose right... You'll be hearing about it...
Pale skin is beautiful, i will admit that, but the yearning for it should not be so important that people put their health at risk. You have to choose a safe skin lightener. I hope i chose right... You'll be hearing about it...
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
Today in History: Beat
October 7, 1955 Allen Ginsberg read his poem "Howl" at the Six Gallery in San Francisco. The Six Gallery had been an auto repair shop, and now it was an art gallery — the sculptures on display were orange crates covered in cloth and dipped in plaster of paris. The reading was intended to promote the new gallery. The poet Kenneth Rexroth organized the reading, and in preparation, he introduced Gary Snyder to Allen Ginsberg. Ginsberg introduced everyone to Jack Kerouac, and they became the core of the group of writers known as the Beats. For the Six Gallery event, Allen Ginsberg and Gary Snyder sent out postcard invitations, and more than 100 people turned up. Rexroth, Snyder, and Ginsberg were scheduled to read, along with Philip Whalen, Philip Lamantia, and Michael McClure.
They asked the guests to donate money for drinks, and Jack Kerouac headed out and bought four jugs of red wine, which got passed around while the poets read.
Ginsberg was the second to the last to read, and he started at about 11 p.m. He was 29 years old, and he had never participated in a poetry reading before. He started off in a quiet voice. But as he read, he found his rhythm, and he took a deep breath before each of the long lines in "Howl" and then said each line in one breath. Jack Kerouac chanted "Go, go, go" in rhythm while Ginsberg read, and the audience went wild.
The reading got a lot of publicity, and Ginsberg became a celebrity, even more so a year later when he published Howl and Other Poems (1956) and it was banned for obscenity, taken to trial, and managed to defy censorship laws.
"Howl" begins with the famous lines:
I saw the best minds of my generation destroyed by
madness, starving hysterical naked,
dragging themselves through the negro streets at dawn
looking for an angry fix,
angelheaded hipsters burning for the ancient heavenly
connection to the starry dynamo in the machin-
ery of night
This is a must for every Beatnik or member of the darkly inclined.
I once read this poem while deppressed and figured out what Ginsberg was trying to say. Not exactly good for deppressed readers... But i won't spoil that for anyone...
I feel like it is going to be an icey winter...
Last winter was the Kentucky Ice Storm (of doom).
As winter rolls on, we all feel that urge to buy our generators and that constant worry that this is going to be another big one - another two weeks without power in the freezing cold stuck at my family's farm, miles from the nearest town or country store...
Skin Lighteners
Throughout history women have used extreme means to get pale, beautiful skin. This goes from taking milk baths to using arsenic and mercury based skin lighteners. Even skin lighteners nowadays are questioned by potential users - are they safe? are they effective? will they screw me up really badly? are they worth it?
Of course arsenic based skin lighteners are dangerous, and of course mercury makes people go crazy.
But the FDA approves of hydroquinone, something they certainly would not do for Madame de Pompadour's arsenic skin bleach. But... does that make it safe?
On the Drugstore.com site for hydroquinone, it lists things to avoid while on this medication:
Sun
harsh chemicals on the skin
Now, if a person wanted light skin they would already be avoiding the first. and i will stop using the harsh products i was using (homemade lighteners and such) for a while, if only to avoid the more unpleasant side-effects.
Side-Effects:
skin irritation
burning
itching
it also says that you may become more sensitive to weather extremes...
That might not bode too well for marching band... it is getting cold here already...
I would need a prescription to get higher than 2% hydroquinone, so I went to Walgreen's and bought some 2% - it was 3OZ for 7 US$. It was called Porcelana, it is a night time fading cream. i hear good things about it on the internet and am willing to try.
As a person who hates spending money, this had better lighten the heck out of my skin...
In all reality, my Jewish/Native American/Slavic skin will probably never be as light as i want it... Can any cream really give a girl beauty? Hopefully i will find out that the answer is yes in 2-4 weeks...
Of course arsenic based skin lighteners are dangerous, and of course mercury makes people go crazy.
But the FDA approves of hydroquinone, something they certainly would not do for Madame de Pompadour's arsenic skin bleach. But... does that make it safe?
On the Drugstore.com site for hydroquinone, it lists things to avoid while on this medication:
Sun
harsh chemicals on the skin
Now, if a person wanted light skin they would already be avoiding the first. and i will stop using the harsh products i was using (homemade lighteners and such) for a while, if only to avoid the more unpleasant side-effects.
Side-Effects:
skin irritation
burning
itching
it also says that you may become more sensitive to weather extremes...
That might not bode too well for marching band... it is getting cold here already...
I would need a prescription to get higher than 2% hydroquinone, so I went to Walgreen's and bought some 2% - it was 3OZ for 7 US$. It was called Porcelana, it is a night time fading cream. i hear good things about it on the internet and am willing to try.
As a person who hates spending money, this had better lighten the heck out of my skin...
In all reality, my Jewish/Native American/Slavic skin will probably never be as light as i want it... Can any cream really give a girl beauty? Hopefully i will find out that the answer is yes in 2-4 weeks...
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
If you want me to discuss something...
my email is khajiit1@live.com or leave a comment...
you need recipes, ideas, advice on what to do now that you got high and lost your virginity to a member of the same sex...
I'm good, i can blog about anything you want to know...
and if you follow me on twitter you will get little bursts of happiness every time i tweet...
i will even help you with your homework! (if you help me with mine)
you need recipes, ideas, advice on what to do now that you got high and lost your virginity to a member of the same sex...
I'm good, i can blog about anything you want to know...
and if you follow me on twitter you will get little bursts of happiness every time i tweet...
i will even help you with your homework! (if you help me with mine)
Vegans and Skin Bleach
I am vegan... I am also a goth with olive skin.
In the world of folk skin bleaching, those things do not mix.
The main ingredients in skin bleaches are milk, yogurt, and lemon juice.
So, basically, i have to find new solutions.
Instead of the traditional milk bath, we sprinkle baking soda in our baths, we use lemon juice as a toner, we use oatmeal on our skin, etc...
The real key here: Becoming nocturnal.
it's the only way i see to stop looking so darn tan. i will import bleach from Japan and wear 100 spf all the time even though i sleep all day...
Nah, that sounds difficult...
I will just buy the bleach, wear sunscreen, and generally avoid sun...
And accept that i will never look like Nicole Kidman :(
In the world of folk skin bleaching, those things do not mix.
The main ingredients in skin bleaches are milk, yogurt, and lemon juice.
So, basically, i have to find new solutions.
Instead of the traditional milk bath, we sprinkle baking soda in our baths, we use lemon juice as a toner, we use oatmeal on our skin, etc...
The real key here: Becoming nocturnal.
it's the only way i see to stop looking so darn tan. i will import bleach from Japan and wear 100 spf all the time even though i sleep all day...
Nah, that sounds difficult...
I will just buy the bleach, wear sunscreen, and generally avoid sun...
And accept that i will never look like Nicole Kidman :(
Bluebery Nom Cookies (bars)
On my list of things to do before i die, number 13, was inventing a cookie.
i don't have pictures, but i invented what came out like a cake, so they are bars/cake/cookies.
Ingredients:
1 cup blueberries
1 1/2 cup flour (up to 2 cups to make batter thicker)
2 V-Eggs (vegan eggs are made by combining 1 Tbsp milled flax seed with 3 Tbsp water and leaving to sit while you prepare the rest of the recipe)
1/3 cup powdered sugar (ish)
1/3 cup brown sugar
1/3 (+) cup white sugar
1/3 cup oil
1/2 cup soy milk (i used vanilla, any is fine)
1/2 tsp bicarbonate soda (baking soda)
1/4 tsp baking powder
1/4 tsp vanilla extract
dash of salt
Mix Stuff in a bowl
heat oven to 350 degrees F
pour mixture into pan
bake 25-30 minutes
Let cool!!!
cut into squares
Devour hungrily...
Now to procure a bandwagon...
i don't have pictures, but i invented what came out like a cake, so they are bars/cake/cookies.
Ingredients:
1 cup blueberries
1 1/2 cup flour (up to 2 cups to make batter thicker)
2 V-Eggs (vegan eggs are made by combining 1 Tbsp milled flax seed with 3 Tbsp water and leaving to sit while you prepare the rest of the recipe)
1/3 cup powdered sugar (ish)
1/3 cup brown sugar
1/3 (+) cup white sugar
1/3 cup oil
1/2 cup soy milk (i used vanilla, any is fine)
1/2 tsp bicarbonate soda (baking soda)
1/4 tsp baking powder
1/4 tsp vanilla extract
dash of salt
Mix Stuff in a bowl
heat oven to 350 degrees F
pour mixture into pan
bake 25-30 minutes
Let cool!!!
cut into squares
Devour hungrily...
Now to procure a bandwagon...
Colours...
So there are like, a zillion shades of red... and first i need to go blonde.
i can't just do blonde then wait, because my parental unit will go crazy and i would make an uggo blonde.
so it looks like i will buy one shade of red and a shade of blonde, just streak blonde through (my hair is drastically darker on top so mostly there) and leave a few darker spots. then go over it with red. then when i decide to add more colour i will put in a shade to compliment the results...
That also begs the question: should i go for the supergoth look o bright red?
Or should i go for the more traditional look even though my skin is darker and olive?
Red Hair on People who are obviously not gingers...
Red hair and dark skin is always a strong contrast. people with dark skin may strive to have these luscious red locks that stand out in a crowd. It may look fabulous on some, but some just can't pull it off.
A lot of people would argue that these darker women and men should just accept their natural color. it's only the right thing to do.
And a good many would say that we can never compete with the natural beauty of natural redheads
Who says we have to look natural to be pretty?
Now, I'm not saying we should all go out, buy hair dye kits and make out locks red, but i am saying, I'm going to do it!
I will post pictures when i have hair like flames.
And you can tell me if i look like a clown!
I think i might be a bear...
You know how bears gain weight and sleep a lot during the winter?
well, every single winter i gain 15-ish pounds and i sleep a lot.
this could just be SAD, or i could be hibernating!
Yeah, I'm a bear...
Is anyone else a bear?
No matter how much you run on the treadmill you can't seem to not gain winter weight and once summer hits you lose it all?
well, every single winter i gain 15-ish pounds and i sleep a lot.
this could just be SAD, or i could be hibernating!
Yeah, I'm a bear...
Is anyone else a bear?
No matter how much you run on the treadmill you can't seem to not gain winter weight and once summer hits you lose it all?
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
Hey guys, i only started this account so i could watch another blog like an obsessive stalker...
Long title, basically sums it up. it's Colonial Chemistry, my science teacher's class blog...
I'm sure that's okay with you, I'll be sporatically posting random crap for your viewing pleasure...
any questions?
I'm sure that's okay with you, I'll be sporatically posting random crap for your viewing pleasure...
any questions?
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