Their hold on me just gets stronger when I am alone. I don't think I will survive if my life stays as it is. I am utterly alone.

Someone end my life. Take me to Hell tonight. Just bring me Anything but this.

I know I'm not like other people, but I do need some of the social interaction they do. Being alone all the time isn't really working. I should call someone.

People keep telling me I need sunlight. I need sunlight like you need a bear up your ass. Love, Sandi.

I exist to harm. In ending it, I hurt people. In not, I still hurt them. If I end it, I will hurt people after. Prepare, friends, to have your hearts broken.

As an animal rights activist, I am not so much anti-death as I am anti-suffering. Things shouldn't be tortured. This is the misunderstood part of my beliefs.

With every page I write, I end a little of my life. But the writing is all that is prolonging it. Irony, I know, but it's an okay deal.